I wish, my love…

'Cause no, we're not promised tomorrow... This morning 5 am - no sleep. Sadness, an empty stomach and some kicking little feet inside me. I look over my right side. "He is not home yet..." You don't wanna know what I was thinking and how hard I was crying. I am strong but being in…

Hold on, we are going home…

This week ... is just past continuous all the way up to hell. I couldn't cry today, not even a tear. No crazy thoughts through my mind and I didn't even get angry. But on the other hand, I felt stupid. I got cold and very stubborn. I was just sure that this is not…

back-up and restore.

Yesterday I put out the desperate woman. He wanted to slow down the things. I said no! You know what 'lets slow down' means. No more things, no more nothing. I back-up it, I refused and explain my reason. But now, I can't lose this feeling that he already decide for him; I can't get…

I died at the age of 25

I couldn't sleep, I even start crying but didn't get any tired eyes enough to fall asleep. Did work through the night like a zombie, but my mind is not stuck anymore. All my wars stopped and all the weapons are down. No more. I got him. And cause I believe in this, I got…

Deal with yourself

I didn't write much lately, did I? Is not like I am losing my passion, I think is just laziness and lack of time. I am so tired, and I write this with my eyes 'wet'. I got stuck with routine and loads of unfocused goals. London gives me a lot of stories, but no…

What will I say the morning after.

I will say that I don't want this anymore. I don't do half's.Is too tiring, too un-beautiful. The connection is there, even the passion is there but I am not the one. You could be my one, but we both know you will not let that happen. I want the feeling to rip me apart,…

come and see me

I wish I wasn’t that kind of woman…

That get crazy about one man who doesn't want her or doesn't have the time for her. I wish I wasn't that kind of woman who will always let that man in again, and again and again; cause she always remember that love needs one more chance every time. I wish I wasn't that woman…

Rough lust vs. Sweet passion

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qGvAfJJEVgM She wasn't in the cage. Actually she didn't see any cage around her. All the feels arousing her between her tights, between her lips. *** How could she choose, between something temporary and an eternal story? the old story and she was so tired of the same flame, but (oh, god) how she loved…

About him.

It's 4 am in London. You fall asleep after a 'shut up' chat with me, where I was chatting and you were just sending me the 'shut up' emoji. And I am happy, I swear to God I am; I just can't explain this stupid smile on my face every time he says :Whats up,…