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I wish, my love…

'Cause no, we're not promised tomorrow... This morning 5 am - no sleep. Sadness, an empty stomach and some kicking little feet inside me. I look over my right side. "He is not home yet..." You don't wanna know what I was thinking and how hard I was crying. I am strong but being in… Continue reading I wish, my love…

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Daily failure of my heart 

I think he doesn't know yet how much i love him. Like he never see my eyes when i look at him, that moment when they start filling with tears. Like the morning waking up when i touch his lips very carefully to not wake him up. Like when i kiss him everywhere just cause… Continue reading Daily failure of my heart 

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Hold on, we are going home…

This week ... is just past continuous all the way up to hell. I couldn't cry today, not even a tear. No crazy thoughts through my mind and I didn't even get angry. But on the other hand, I felt stupid. I got cold and very stubborn. I was just sure that this is not… Continue reading Hold on, we are going home…

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A doua mina

Am un adevar sau un 'of' de scris, pentru ca nu m-ai suport femeile care isi iarta sotul dar o detesta pe amanta. Cind am inceput acest blog, eram intr-o relatie cu un baiat brunet si inalt, destept si cu simtul umorului dar dupa cum am aflat mult mai tirziu (dupa ce m-a lovit 'dragostea')… Continue reading A doua mina

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back-up and restore.

Yesterday I put out the desperate woman. He wanted to slow down the things. I said no! You know what 'lets slow down' means. No more things, no more nothing. I back-up it, I refused and explain my reason. But now, I can't lose this feeling that he already decide for him; I can't get… Continue reading back-up and restore.

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When he told me he is not legal here, I was so relieved but once again I was just thinking 'How the hell I do find them?'. He is this young-old guy, good christian with good manners and all this stuff. From his stories, he was homeless some time ago. People who lost everything once,… Continue reading Hero

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Again? oh, no.

They are the one with problems and in the end I am the crazy one, too sentimental. Zero fuck given. I am so mad. I am terrible at keeping myself together. I want to break everything and smash. But this time will be different? Zero fuck given my ass, I wish. How I wish to… Continue reading Again? oh, no.