Yesterday, me and him had a moment. So I had a bad day and start crying in the train and I didn't stop till I came home and he hugged me and we just lie down and talked. I have this moments when I have a situation that make me nervous or stressful - and… Continue reading You
'Cause no, we're not promised tomorrow... This morning 5 am - no sleep. Sadness, an empty stomach and some kicking little feet inside me. I look over my right side. "He is not home yet..." You don't wanna know what I was thinking and how hard I was crying. I am strong but being in… Continue reading I wish, my love…
When I said that I love this man - I meant I love him more than myself. I was thinking he is happy but he proved me wrong. I used to think till this morning that this is it. This is what I wanted and waited all my life, this is why it didn't work… Continue reading My universe
My life changed in a whole different direction that I expected. My life with him - I waited for this man all my life, of course I didn't expect everything to be perfect but the feeling of rejection that followed me all this years is still here. He sees it like a complaint from my… Continue reading I am back…I hope I last.
I think he doesn't know yet how much i love him. Like he never see my eyes when i look at him, that moment when they start filling with tears. Like the morning waking up when i touch his lips very carefully to not wake him up. Like when i kiss him everywhere just cause… Continue reading Daily failure of my heart
This week ... is just past continuous all the way up to hell. I couldn't cry today, not even a tear. No crazy thoughts through my mind and I didn't even get angry. But on the other hand, I felt stupid. I got cold and very stubborn. I was just sure that this is not… Continue reading Hold on, we are going home…
Yesterday I put out the desperate woman. He wanted to slow down the things. I said no! You know what 'lets slow down' means. No more things, no more nothing. I back-up it, I refused and explain my reason. But now, I can't lose this feeling that he already decide for him; I can't get… Continue reading back-up and restore.